It's amazing. Yes, it is.

2005 has gotten off to a beautiful start. My soul is finally feeling some peace. It's odd, because this week, there has been a lot of upheaval in my family (my parents & sister) on account of them taking in my juvenile delinquent step-neice (from my dad's first marriage). However, on the home front, I'm just feeling fabulous.

So, previously I've written about crushes. Lots recently. Well, we have a winner - and he's probably the least likely suspect. The guy from work - wow. I'm in awe. We are both incredibly busy people so it's been hard, but we're making time. Last Friday we went out to dinner at Benihana and then ended up in the arcade at the Golden Phoenix. It's funny, I never thought that, at 27, I would find myself head over heels about an older divorcee...but he's an absolutely amazing person. Maybe I'm just growing up - being so crazy about someone who isn't the hot, young boy of the week. :) I'm proud of myself.

Nevin just started a new daycare. It's going well and he's taking little classes. It's so cute. His Sunday School teacher is watching him and working with him to make sure he's ready for Kindergarten next year. Yay!!! I'm feeling very blessed right now.

I got my first evaluation at work and it was AWESOME! Life just gets better and better and better. :)

Alright, since I'm in a training class, I'd better go. Home PC not fixed yet...but that's only cuz I've been too busy. ;)

Love you all! Be in touch!
Yvette

Promises, Promises

So, I know I keep telling everyone that I'm going to keep this updated more often...but there is this thing called the Trojan dropper.small.8 that is impeding my progress. My computer at home will stay on for 5-7 minutes before locking up. I promise, I will have the situation repaired shortly....next week or so. But, until then, updates will be brief.

Let's see - here's the newest. I think I could officially be deemed as seeing the older guy I spoke of earlier. Kissed him FINALLY the other night and it was awesome. I've been itching to do it again ever since but, seeing as we work together and I'm still on probation, I want to keep things pretty low profile for a while.

Nevin is doing great.

I went out for my birthday and had a blast.

Yup, life is good and I'm feeling happy and giddy and I want to tell you everything...but I'm at work where they monitor our internet use, so I can't go into as much detail as I'd like.

*sigh*

Keep smiling and feel free to leave questions in my comments! I'm sure there's things I've said that people are wondering about the follow up on....cuz I've had a tendency to leave things pretty open ended lately.

Love you all!
Yvette

Festivities Update

Saturday - great fun. 5 bars and 8 hours later, we were home safely...well, except for Kyla who was passed out in my hallway....but that's a different story altogether.

Chuck E. Cheese guy? He came, he made an ass of himself, he went home. He keeps calling. At this point, I really want to put a hex on the guy who invented caller id. Bastard. At the same time, I want to hug him because now I know when Mr. I want to make out with everybody is calling. No, I didn't make out with him, but I saw him with his hand on one girl's ass and then kissing one of my friends and he had the nerve to ask me for a kiss goodnight? Naw - fuck that! Ew.

I got to hang with my girls again, which I had definitely missed. Alisa, Nicci, Jen, Mack, Chan, Sarah, and Kyla. Great fun. Actually, most of the night I was with Jen. I love that girl and we just don't get to spend enough time together. Still don't know what happened to Mack....but the last time I saw her, she was kissing her boyfriend so I can imagine where she went.

Still crushing on boys. Up to 3 now. 1) Jeff, of course. We had another day of great conversation yesterday and I am ever so twitterpated. 2) Older man from work (mentioned earlier). He called yesterday to see how my night was. Awww...sweet. 3) Hot guy from Satellite (my favorite bar). Okay, actually, we met there in July and he was the sweetest guy - seemed very genuine - and always wants to make sure that I'm not driving myself home because my little boy needs me. Hence, since I spend so much time home with my little boy, we don't see each other very often but I shoot him an email every now and then to say hi. Well, saw him again on Saturday and had forgotten how incredibly sexy he was....even if he's got a neck tattoo. Oh yeah, and he gives the best hugs ever. Happy Birthday to me!

I had a great new drink called "Sex with Dan" (long story) over at Mr. O's. Big fun. I don't know what all is in it, but it will rock your world! I had it at 8:00 on top of a bottle of chardonnay, and I can tell you now that everything is patchy until around 1 a.m. Yowsa! Oh, and the best new club in Reno is definitely Liquid. It's on west street, just up from First (nextdoor to the g spot) and it kicks ass. The front is chill, but go into the backroom for some serious house music and good times. GOOD TIMES!

Anyway, all is well with the world...and my heart is light and fluffy....yay.

Tonight is the night....or something like it. :)

As I was debating over what to wear, I decided that it was time to, once again, google myself and see what the news was. Well - of course, my blogger profile comes up first...and then this blog...and then my cure blog...but then blogshares came up. Apparently my investments were profitable (forgot to log in since september...Oops!). I also discovered that usc still has a listing for my old college webpage but that the link doesn't work. That's a damn shame - I would have loved to have stolen the old background I had on there (from 1996 - whoa!).

Anywho - things are going quite well. I'm being a bit of a chicken when it comes to men - perhaps it's that I don't know that I'm ready to be in a relationship or perhaps it's that I'm kind of wondering why suddenly all of these people have taken an interest in me, but it's getting interesting.

Did I mention that I got hit on by a single guy at Chuck E. Cheese last weekend? He was super sweet and gave me his phone number...and I actually called.

Oh crap - must go.

Hello again!

I know, I've been a bad blogger....and here it is, it's been over a week again and I'm just now getting around to catching all of you up.

Well, let's see....

We got more snow. Lots of it. We were actually declared to be in a "state of emergency" and it was pretty freakin' gnarly. I can't say that I really like snow anymore - in fact, my car sat in the same place for two days....until our carports started collapsing and we had to move it to a different spot, where it sat until Tuesday. YIPES!

They say it's stopped now - but it is freezing cold! Yesterday our high was in the 20's and they say it's getting colder throughout the weekend. So, obviously, I didn't get to celebrate my birtday last weekend - although a friend did take Nevin and help him get me a birthday present and took me to dinner. So sweet. :) Still, this next weekend, I finally get to celebrate the beginning of my 28th year (Isn't it funny that we don't turn our real age until we finish the year?). 27 is going to be good to me - I'm sure of it. :)

In other news, I'm crushing. On two people. 1) Nevin's dad, the past love of my life and 2) this Engineer - he's older but he's amazing and funny and sweet....who knows.

Anyways, that's all for right now. Here's some pics to keep you entertained.

always,
Yvette

Oh yeah - there's a #11

11. You save so much gas when you only leave your house on foot for 4 days!!! Woo - go snow!

10 Things I learned while I was snowed in

10. There's more room in my apartment than I ever gave it credit for. It's amazing the places that you can fit things.
9. My neighbors are infinitely cooler than I remember them. Since Aleda moved, I hadn't seen anybody much, but now that the kids are all building snowmen together and I'm rebonding with the neighborhood moms, I can hardly wait for the summer and the days of hanging out on the benches at the park with all of them.
8. Hot chocolate is the drink of the gods. Coffee and Carolan's gets old...but hot chocolate is forever.
7. You cannot effectively make spritz cookies on nonstick cookie sheets. Trying to pump buttery cookie dough out of a cookie gun and get it to stick well enough to detach is virtually impossible unless you're using a baking stone. Perhaps that's why the pampered chef recommends buying them together.
6. There is nothing better than clothes that just came out of the dryer....unless, of course, they have rivets. Ouch!
5. If you flip back and forth between Vh1 and E! you will never ever get bored....and you will be a plethora of useless information about celebrities and their spending habits.
4. If you have to get your friend to put her truck in 4-wheel drive so that you can go grocery shopping, it is suddenly infinitely more fun.
3. Black Cherry soda is still cool.
2. I, Robot is an incredible movie - even if you don't like science fiction.
and
1. It is very therapeutic to spend a whole day in your pajamas...and the pizza delivery guy doesn't care how big your hair is. :)

Cheers to a very happy new year!

So, I started the new year snowed in. Most people wouldn't be really happy about this - but, due to the fact that I did what was best for me on New Year's Eve, I have learned who my real friends are. It has been proven that all of them, with one exception, will understand that sometimes I need to do what I need to do without taking it personally....and that makes me happy to no end. I did also find out that one of the people whom I considered a close friend was probably only around cuz she's codependent and I cater to that. It's a damn shame, because I had some good times with her, but I've got enough things on my plate emotionally already and I don't hang out with people who are an additional source of stress. If I have to tiptoe around you, I'd rather stomp the other way. Meh. These things happen.

Christmas was magic. No really, it was. Jeff and I hung out together for the first time since he moved away - and it was absolutely awe inspiring. See, as I've said before, Jeff was my best friend for a long time before we started dating - so losing him was a double whammy. Well, for the first time in about 3 years, my best friend came to hang out for the weekend. It was awesome. We went through 4 pots of coffee and ended up staying up laughing and talking and just catching up on each other's lives until dawn....of course, this was after 2 hours of being aggravated and getting out things that have needed to be said for ages....but it was beautiful, nonetheless. It also helped us to work out acceptable arrangements for visitations and child support and a multitude of other things that we couldn't seem to talk about without yelling before. I feel as though the weight of 1000 years has been lifted off of my shoulders and my heart can be light and joyous again.

Perhaps he was right, a long long time ago, when he said that all we needed was some space to find ourselves and we could find each other again. Now, I don't know if this means that we will ever work things out but, if nothing else, I have my best friend back and that is more than worth it's weight in gold.

Nevin and I are getting along great. It's been a hard road, and the child psychologist has been a great coach in my corner. It appears that all I needed to do was recognize some patterns: what nevin was seeking, how he discovered he could get it, and how to break the cycle. It was hard, and I think we're definitely still in process, but it gets a little better every day and that, too, makes my heart feel not quite so heavy.

So, now I am in the final week before my 27th birthday, and I feel amazingly at peace. I am doing what I should be doing, going a direction I should be going, accomplishing what I want to accomplish - and there's nobody holding my hand or making me do it - I'm doing all of it for me...and, of course, nevin. It is nothing short of a miracle that I have come as far as I have in the last couple of years. I'm totally self-sufficient now...something I probably never would have been if things hadn't happened the way that they had...and it's wonderful.

I can only pray that this year will continue to make me feel as joyous as it has in the first few days. And I hope that all of you are blessed in the same way.

Much love,
as always,
Yvette M.